Asha

Love you loads Nicole, I'm really touched! I really thank God with all my heart for having you, I really appreaciate you, your love and all your care alot! I'll always remember everything, and will keep this in mind!

This is what Nicole dearest had for me:) it made my heart smile real wide! 'Adapted from nirvanastate.blogspot.com :) my love!

To asha pandey: Youre worthy&youre always loved by me& to those who really care.To those who don't realise your beautiful existence and take you for granted,damn to them.It might hurt&frustrate you,but its their freaking loss.What the heck.Things happen for a reason,and this might try to tell us that we should learn from it.and show that we can actually react the way we are supposed to.It might take us awhile but hey,you can do it.Thankyou for being you. (: With all the love in the world, from the one that rocks your boat.with freaky glow-in-the dark eyeballs.Song for now :The Space Between Us by (Building 429)/Buckcherry-Sorry

Asha

God:) please make everything alright! I hope everything turns out right and things don't have to cahnge!

I just have this sudden feeling I might die soon, don't know what's coming at which point of time. I've been having weird, freaky and oddly real..Worst thing's that I've been suffering bad unusual stomach pains for more than a month now which come and go every night-(that's what causes my so-called insomnia) Some nights-its really mild pains, while on others it makes me feel really breathless & cause me to be unable to move. I finally told Mum about it recently during the holidays when one day I just came out from the shower & suddenly the pain was there at an unbearable scale-I couldn't breathe nor stand..I just sat on the floor at the bathroom door. The worst pain came just 2 days back while I was doing the little exercises I do before shower/when I'm tired...it was so bad I just lay on the floor struggling to breathe.

I had gone to compass point with my brother today(: Honestly, I can say that no matter how young he is, he has really made alot of impact in my life this whole month. We just went to timezone,played some games, ate at Mac's then went to the CC,just sat down there & spoke for hours! He's really young so I can't relate every single thing to him, but I totally loved the fact that he cares, when we were about to leave, I suddenly got the pain yet again, making me breathless and he kept reassuring me,holding on to me and checking on me:)when we got back, he forced Mum to bring me to a doc right away-he was afraid it was gastric..but I've had that before and its completely different from this frequent unbearable pains.

Thank God for Anirudh, Nicole & Doven!! If not for them, I might have gone into severe depression. Doven made me realise the fact that-I can't be happy at all times. We have to love & accept one another regardless of our emotions and moods..be they happy/sad/angry/disappointed etc. I think its time to rectify my problem of being too giving to people who do not seem bother. Dhivya said "Being too nice has its disadvantages" I think I know now, having experienced it numerous times. People can be uber nice,loving & caring in the beginnig & later on they totally stop appreciating you, taking you for granted and assuming you'll be there forever.. I just want to thank God for the people who really care for me, who appreaciate my presence just as much I appreaciate theirs. I always pray for all's well-being and sincerely wish them all the happiness in the world.

"Nobody can hurt me without my permission." Mahatma Gandhi :)

Asha

HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY BARKHA!((:

(P.S. I STILL LOVE YOU SILLY.HAPPY BIRTHDAY!)

Asha

No time to really post, but here's a really cruel unavoidable video I came across through a petition mail-It was taken undercover at a farm in China. Watch how inhumane people can be. Innocent, helpless animals are brutally hit, smashed and whacked, skinned alive, being treated worse than anyone would even treat their soft toys or some non living thing! The marblehearted workers are so ruthless they don't even consider that animals have senses and feelings just like us. Its unfortunate that without any second thoughts or consideration, the poor animals are stepped and crushed upon. Insensitive behaviour. Animals are sacrificied mercilessly,and so brutally just for our livelihood or love and desire for fur material goods?! Anyone who wears any fur at all, shares the blame for this horrific tragic conditions of the animals on Chinese fur farms! I PLEDGE TO BE FUR FREE:) do so too at http://www.furisdead.com/pledge-furfree.asp?c=chfrplg stop animal abuse and cruelty or else... I KNOW KUNG FU KARATE and 47 other dangerous words! Thank you:) lots of love.